went to the new house on saturday. got all the papers signed. we'll be able to collect the keys by mid october. i guess this represents the start of a new life for me. my childhood as i knew it has ended. it is now day 43 and we are moving on.
today i considered moving overseas to study and not coming back. i don't have anything here worth staying for. all the friendships i thought mattered have turned to dust. the people i loved most are moving on and maybe i should too. it's pointless trying to hold on to what no longer exists. the sooner one lets go, the sooner one can look forward to better and new things in life.
it's been terribly lonely journey. i don't know why i care so much about others and go out of my way to do things for them when they don't appreciate it anyway. maybe it's time to tone down and slip back into isolation. ninety percent of the people i care about now won't remember me in five years' time anyway.
but wherever i go, whichever distant corner of this planet i wander to in the future, you'll always be able to find me on this little piece of the internet.
-Jont
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